Sunday, February 10, 2008

On the inside



I recently read an interview with Eartha Kitt in The Oregonian. At 81, she is a force to be reckoned with. Sexy and vital and amazing.

I've been having a bit of mid-life crisis lately. Or awakening. Or something. On the outside, I have all this gray hair and these age spots. What the hell? On the inside, I'm still 30. Only hotter than I was at 30. On the outside... not so much.

When I found this song, I had to laugh. That's it exactly! I spent my young years being "cute" or "sweet" or "nice" and it just didn't mesh at all with who I felt I was on the inside.

I'm coming to terms with all of that. Who I am on the inside. But it's true what they say: Youth is wasted on the young.

I was trying to let my hair grow out to it's natural color, let my "wisdom" show, but I couldn't do it. It's not that I didn't like it, I just didn't recognize myself. When we lived in LA, we used to see these women (and men), and from the back, they looked twenty, but when you got to the front, you wondered where they were hiding the teamsters that were holding up all that plastic surgery. They didn't look younger, they looked desperate. I don't want to look like that. But I think I'm starting to understand why they do it.

I don't think I'll be getting plastic surgery or botox any time soon, but I don't think I'm going to let myself go gray. I don't really want to be "evil".

It's just too early for old.

10 comments:

suttonhoo said...

wait. you're not 30? since when?

but seriously: I hear ya, sister. there's just no stopping that clock.

anyhoo, while you're still miles out from old ('cause you're young yet, girlie, and fresh and beautiful, regardless how you may be feeling today) think about our sisters who are doing it/did it right:

Georgia O'Keefe
Diane Keaton
Helen Mirren
Simone de Beauvoir (that bum shot was taken when she was 44, doncha know.)
Elaine Stritch

And yes: Eartha.

I'll be back after I'd had some coffee -- these are just the first girls to come to mind.

Kari said...

Susan Sarandon! Meryl Streep! Julie Christie! Michelle Pfeiffer!

I'd like to be evil ;-)

I, Rodius said...

That's a great song! "In the theater, I want to change my seat just so I can step on everybody's feet." Ha! I don't really know me any Eartha, but I think it'll be worth looking for. Thanks!

I, Rodius said...

Oh yeah, and Tina Turner performing with Beyonce last night. How old is she? Could be 40, could be 80. I'd believe either one.

Tracey R. said...

You spent your younger years being cute and sweet and nice?

Define younger years.

:)

Couldn't resist.

Tracey R. said...

I'm truly challenged today.

The kindergarteners took it all out of me.

I thought I clicked on the blog of my college friend - hence, me busting on you about being nice in your younger years.

As for you, well, I STILL think you're cute and sweet and nice, so I don't know what you're talking about.

Sorry about dialing the wrong blog number. Geez, talk about getting old.

anniemcq said...

Tracey, thank you! That made me feel so much better.

You guys are all the best. And Tracey, I've been saying "what" every time anyone talks to me lately, I feel like I need an earhorn.

EH? WHAT'S THAT?

Lolabola said...

I wanna spit tacks

there really is no stopping that clock! and secretly I think that grey hairs breed in the night.

Lady Di said...

sing it, sistah! and thanks to all the commenters with role model lists! the G-man calls the dye-jobs "hair crack" -- perhaps he's right, because i seem unable to start and stop at will, unlike in my younger days. but i just look around at work and think -- when did i move from the prodigy to the fogey? not sure i'm ready for that whole "wise woman" persona yet.

Lisa L said...

I cant handle being grey either. So I put brown on it and then occasionally put this really, really hideous cap thing on and pull pieces of hair through it to do my own 'highlights'....I look so incredibly UGLY in that hat, that I laugh and tell my husb. that I put it on to remind him why he married me! LOL Honestly the hair thing is such a drag, but looking way older than you feel is even worse.