Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Fate At Random
And what about "grace"? How do some, by the "grace" of whatever you believe in, manage to rise out of those situations to be amazing people, partly because they've played the hand they've been dealt particularly well.
Mostly, though, I've just been trying so hard to remind myself that no matter what I do, or how much I care, or how hard I work, there will always be things I cannot control. I'm not even talking about things that happen to me. Just the normal shit that one witnesses the longer one lives.
And I've been trying to not turn off how much that hurts, or seems unfair, and redirect it to something hopeful.
To dance with that, and sing with that.
Even when I just feel like crying.